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       It was a little after seven thirty in the morning. Marion 
        had risen from her bed in the TARDIS and checked that Rodan was still 
        sleeping soundly. She had looked and found Kristoph in the cloister room 
        meditating, as he so often did first thing. Then she went for a walk. 
        That was something she liked to do when she was home at Mount Lœng 
        House. Before breakfast, while the house was quiet, her fosterling asleep 
        and her husband performing those personal rituals that he found so refreshing 
        to his mind and body, she liked to walk in the garden. It was always quiet 
        early on, before the gardeners were at work and she liked to take off 
        her shoes and walk in the cool, dew-laden grass.  
      
        There was no dew-laden grass here. There was a caravan park mostly full 
        of sleeping holidaymakers. Close to the caravan that wasn’t a caravan 
        there was a path across the sand dunes and she walked up there, the sea 
        breeze ruffling her hair. She was wearing sandals as she crossed the dunes, 
        because the sea grasses that bound them together could be sharp underfoot, 
        but as soon as she reached the beach itself she took them off and let 
        her feet sink into the cool wet sand.  
      
        She missed sand. She realised that as she walked along. Growing up in 
        Birkenhead, she got to go to the seaside regularly. New Brighton, the 
        nearest spot, of course, didn’t have any sand. But it was only a 
        few miles further in her granddad’s car to Hoylake with its wide 
        beach of fine brown sand. She used to enjoy almost every Saturday and 
        Sunday afternoons there from spring to mid autumn. And their annual holidays 
        would bring them here to north Wales - to Talacre and Tywyn and Rhyl and 
        Prestatyn, or perhaps all the way to Llandudno for a few days. Staying 
        in a caravan that was only a few sand dunes away from the beach, from 
        the sand and the waves rolling in, from sea shells to collect and all 
        the other pleasures a child could find on the beach, was the happiest 
        and most contented time she remembered when she was a little girl. Simple 
        pleasures that didn’t cost very much money. A day at the beach with 
        a picnic and a stick of rock or one of those big red see-through toffee 
        lollies with a cat’s face on it would be enough to satisfy Marion 
        in those days.  
      
        She wondered if they still made those lollies with the cat’s faces 
        these days. Rodan would love one. Or one of the big toffee dummies. Maybe 
        she could buy sticks of rock for all the children in her classroom. They 
        would love that. Sweet treats from planet Earth. 
      
        But mostly she thought of buying a big cat lolly for Rodan to eat while 
        she sat in her pushchair or toddled along on her little legs along the 
        sea front. If they didn’t find that sort of thing today, they certainly 
        would tomorrow when they got to the really commercialised resorts further 
        up the coast. And it was still an inexpensive kind of pleasure. She was 
        used to being rich now, and not having to worry about those things. But 
        it was nice to indulge in something simple like this.  
      
        Kristoph had actually laughed when he asked her if she would like a holiday 
        offworld and she suggested coming here to North Wales. He had mentioned 
        a whole lot of exotic places with singing mountains and all kinds of wonders. 
        But she had held out for North Wales. The fact that Lily and Li could 
        join them on this trip sealed it, of course. And Kristoph seemed to be 
        enjoying himself even if this was a terribly unsophisticated kind of holiday 
        for a man like him.  
      
        She walked right along the beach, past the lighthouse that used to fascinate 
        her when she was a little girl. As she did so, she noticed Li sitting 
        on a rock a little way ahead of her. She approached quietly. He might 
        have been meditating, and she knew not to disturb a Time Lord when he 
        was in a trance.  
      
        But as she came close to him, Li opened his eyes and smiled warmly at 
        her. He reached out his hand and she took it. She wasn’t entirely 
        surprised when he drew her down onto the rock beside him and held her 
        lightly around the waist.  
      
        “We are both morning people,” he said. “Lily likes to 
        sleep in. And I know Kristoph is in his cloister. I felt the aura of his 
        meditations.” 
      
        “I thought perhaps you were doing the same thing,” she answered 
        him. 
      
        “I was. But then I felt your presence near me and it was too much 
        of a distraction.” 
      
        She laughed softly.  
      
        “Li, you rogue,” she said. “I’m a married woman 
        and you’re spoken for. I’m not supposed to distract you.” 
         
      
        “You always did,” he admitted. “Remember when I was 
        a much younger man than I am now, when we first met.” 
      
        “I prefer not to remember that,” she told him. “When 
        you and Kristoph were enemies.” 
      
        “We were never enemies. We were just friends who had misunderstood 
        each other in a terrible, almost tragic way. But you were neither. You 
        were a thing of beauty to my eyes. When I snatched you away, as a hostage 
        to lure Kristoph to the place of reckoning….” He sighed and 
        tightened his hold around her waist. “I was young then. Now, I’m 
        old. And if anyone saw us now, they might think I am your father or grandfather, 
        perhaps.” 
      
        “There’s nobody else on the beach,” Marion answered 
        him. “If there was, I think they might just think you’re far 
        too old for me and we’re a rather odd couple, and I shouldn’t 
        be sitting on a rock beside you. I probably shouldn’t be, for that 
        matter. But Kristoph wouldn’t mind. Nor would Lily. They both understand 
        about friendship.”  
      
        Li nodded and smiled wistfully.  
      
        “Lily was the first woman I fell in love with, when we were young 
        and she had eyes only for the handsome Lœngbærrow heir. If we were 
        not such good friends, jealousy could have torn us apart back then. Four 
        of us courted her. My brother Laegen and myself, your Kristoph, and the 
        man who eventually won her, Jules D’Alba. We all lost that race. 
        And I lost the second woman I ever loved to Kristoph.” 
      
        “Me?” Marion knew, of course, that Li had affection for her. 
        But she had never heard him express it that way, before. “But you 
        hardly knew me.” 
      
        “That is so. And yet, in the short time that you were my hostage, 
        I fell in love with you, Marion. You were terrified of me. Yet you stood 
        up to me. You were not cowed by the fact that I could have killed you 
        in an instant. You were afraid that I might dishonour you. And there was 
        good reason for that fear. I was sorely tempted to make you mine in that 
        way. But that would have been a terrible thing for me to do. And it would 
        have made you hate me, when I wanted the very opposite thing.” 
      
        “Even though you scared me, I did come to like you, Li,” she 
        said. “You know I did. That’s why I….” 
      
        “You held my hand as I went through my last regeneration. And when 
        my life was returned, you stood between me and the sword wielded by the 
        man you truly loved. In all my long years I never witnessed an act so 
        selfless and so brave. That was when I loved you the most. But that was 
        when I knew you could never be mine, when you saved my life by persuading 
        The Executioner to put friendship before duty.”  
      
        “I couldn’t have let him kill you. I’m so glad he didn’t. 
        I don’t think I could have gone on loving him if he had.” 
         
      
        “I think you would. But there would have been that small, hard knot 
        within you both that would have darkened your relationship. But… 
        Marion, my dear… when we parted, when I began my doubly exiled life, 
        living in ancient China, I thought often of you. That young Chinaman… 
        before the first of his string of lovers and courtesans and wives… 
        he lay on his sleeping mat at night and dreamt of an unrequited love.” 
         
      
        “Li!” Now she did feel a little shocked. But he laughed softly 
        and told her there was nothing to be afraid of.  
      
        “It would have been a pure love, Marion. If I could have persuaded 
        you to love me instead of Kristoph, and stay in exile with me, it would 
        have been the sweetest, purest love a man and a woman could ever know.” 
         
      
        He shifted his position on the rock and lifted Marion onto his knee. It 
        didn’t feel like something she shouldn’t do. It felt comfortable 
        and nice to be so close to one who was such a special friend as Li was 
        to her.  
      
        “Let me share something with you, my dear,” he said. And he 
        reached to touch her forehead. Marion gasped as she felt him reach into 
        her mind and place something there. A bundle of memories that she knew 
        couldn’t be true, because she knew what her life really was. She 
        knew how happy she was as Kristoph’s wife, as Lady Marion de Lœngbærrow. 
        But now she had an inkling of what it might have been like if she had, 
        somehow, chosen that day to become the wife of a Chinaman called Mai Li 
        Tuo. She saw a small but comfortable house halfway up a mountain in rural 
        China where she would have been honoured by her husband and respected 
        by his neighbours. They would have made love every night on a sleeping 
        mat in the light of an open fire and spent simple days together, hunkering 
        down under furs through the cold, snowbound winter, welcoming the spring 
        sunshine and the hot summer and preparing for another winter. She would 
        have grown to maturity and then to old age by his side, always loved, 
        always cherished, never hurt or frightened, or allowed to cry from any 
        thoughtlessness on his part. And when she died, he would have honoured 
        her passing with deep, deep mourning.  
      
        “That was how it was with my first wife, who I lived with for so 
        many good years,” he said. “But if you had been there, instead, 
        it would have been just as beautiful.” 
      
        “Li, you sweet man,” she told him. “Please don’t 
        regret that it never happened. It couldn’t. I was already too much 
        in love with Kristoph. I don’t know… perhaps if you had been 
        the first Time Lord I ever met… goodness knows you might have been. 
        You lived in the same city as me. But I was destined to meet a literature 
        professor in a tweed suit on Leeds railway station.  
      
        “And I was destined to love so many women it would take me all morning 
        sitting here to tell you all their names. But I have never forgotten one 
        of them, or how much she meant to me. And now, Lily is my lover again 
        and you, my second love, are a dear friend. And… I think we are 
        going to have breakfast on the beach this morning and speak of other things.” 
      
        Marion was surprised by that until she turned her head and saw Kristoph, 
        carrying a picnic basket and a blanket, and Lily walking beside him, holding 
        Rodan’s hand as she toddled along. Marion made as if to move from 
        Li’s knee, but he held her there a little longer, at least until 
        the little girl broke free of Lily’s grasp and hurried towards her, 
        arms outstretched. Then she ran to hug her fosterling and Kristoph smiled 
        and kissed her. Li rose from his perch and went to embrace Lily, who kissed 
        him just as lovingly.  
      
        “Since the two of you were already enjoying the beach, I thought 
        we might as well join you,” Kristoph said as he spread the blanket 
        on the dry sand above the water line. “We can enjoy this rather 
        lovely scene for a few hours before we drive on up the coast looking for 
        a place where we can buy sticks of rock and ‘cat lollies’ 
        and other such delicacies and introduce our little Rodan to the delights 
        of carousels and Ferris wheels.”  
      
        “That child is going to find southern Gallifrey a very dull place 
        to grow up in after her time with you is over,” Lily said when Ferris 
        wheels were explained to her. “We have nothing like that, there.” 
      
        “Gallifrey has other compensations,” Marion admitted. “I 
        have come to love it as home. But Rodan will have fond memories of running 
        on a beach, splashing in the shallows, and eating ‘cat lollies’ 
        to carry with her through her life.” 
      
        “She isn’t the only one who has fond memories to carry through 
        her life,” Kristoph said, looking at Marion inscrutably. She blushed 
        guiltily, but he smiled at her and at Li. And a little later, when Lily 
        and Li, two dignified elders of Gallifrey, a people known for their stoicism, 
        took Rodan for a splash in the shallows and then a hunt for pretty seashells 
        to collect as a memento of her trip to the seaside, he had a quiet word 
        to say to her.  
      
        “I know about Li’s feelings for you,” he said. “I 
        know he shared them with you. Quite what put him in mind to do so on this 
        beach on this morning, I don’t know. Perhaps there is something 
        in this sea air. But I don’t mind. If I ever had cause to be jealous 
        of Li it was centuries ago when Lily seemed, for a time, to favour him 
        over me. Our friendship was not tested then. It wasn’t even tested 
        by those years when I thought he was a traitor and I sought to kill him. 
        He was always my dearest friend. It was only that I put national loyalty 
        before all else that brought us to that near disaster. And we have you 
        to thank for straightening us out. I can forgive him a certain fantasy 
        about you. And I can forgive you for liking the idea as much as you do.” 
        He touched her face and she felt him entering her mind the same way Li 
        had. It felt as if he was rifling through her thoughts like they were 
        pages from a book. He smiled as he touched on those false memories Li 
        had planted.  
      
        “It’s a dangerous power, that. If he were a less honourable 
        man he could have made you think you were his lover back then and you 
        would never have questioned him. As it is… I don’t mind, I 
        really don’t. Keep those memories as a sweet souvenir as Rodan is 
        keeping her seashells. But remember the one whose love for you is enduring 
        and real.” 
      
        “I will,” she promised.  
      
        “Good. Now… would you like to come for a paddle in the waters 
        of Talacre bay before we hitch up our ‘caravan’ and head for 
        the source of those ‘cat lollies’? Provided, that is, no word 
        ever gets back to any member of the Gallifreyan aristocracy, that I was 
        ever seen in a public place with my bare feet covered in sea water. I 
        would be ruined.”  
        
      
      
      
    
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