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       Chrístõ woke in his bedroom in Mount Lœng 
        House on Gallifrey. It was exactly as it had been the last time he lived 
        there, before he left in his first TARDIS on his extended field study. 
        It was the bedroom of a slightly bookish teenager with a table given over 
        to a collection of artefacts like a tooth from a Pazithi wolf, a meteorite, 
        a piece of magnetic rock from the Dark Territory. There was a desk cluttered 
        with half finished pieces of electronic circuitry that he was working 
        on, a big oak wardrobe full of his clothes, a full length mirror, a door 
        leading to his private bathroom, another that went into his study where 
        most of his books were.  
      
        The slanting sun of a warm Gallifreyan morning shone through the window 
        just as it had done every morning of his young life. Waking in this room 
        was always a pleasant experience. It meant he was home from the Academy, 
        home from his travels.  
      
        Home. 
      
        The strange thing was he couldn’t remember why he was home this 
        time. He lay in the bed and thought about it for a while. Of course, he 
        and Julia were still officially on their way to the Olympiad aboard the 
        Starship Harlan Ellison. Most weekends, though, and quite a few free evenings, 
        they left the confines of the ship in the TARDIS. He must have decided 
        to pay a visit home. He hadn’t seen his father for months, or Valena 
        and Garrick. He missed them all much more than he ever admitted.  
      
        He got out of bed and looked out of the window at the rose garden that 
        was still kept in impeccable order by the gardeners. His mother’s 
        rose garden, her own special place. His bedroom was above the white drawing 
        room which led out onto the terrace and into the rose garden. It was still 
        called the White Drawing Room even though it had been his schoolroom in 
        his younger days and now it was where Garrick sat with his tutors and 
        prepared for the Prydonian Academy entrance examinations.  
      
        He glanced at the clock by his bed. Nearly breakfast time. He thought 
        about spending a leisurely meal with his father, his half-brother chattering 
        to him, Julia swapping fashion tips with Valena. Strange how such domestic 
        normality appealed when he thought what he wanted was adventure and excitement. 
         
      
        He stepped out onto the landing. Oddly, he couldn’t remember getting 
        showered and dressed, but he was wearing a black and silver day robe as 
        befitted an Oldblood heir in his home demesne. A door opened and his half-brother 
        stepped out, dressed in a tunic and leggings suited to an eight year old 
        with a morning’s tuition ahead of him.  
      
        “Hey, kid,” he called out. “I’ll take you for 
        a drive later. We’ll go up to the Tower and see Paracell Hext.” 
      
        Garrick didn’t respond. The boy looked down at his feet and then 
        turned towards the stairs. Chrístõ was puzzled. Garrick 
        was always excited when his big brother was home. He loved going out with 
        him to see places his mother wouldn’t think to take him like the 
        headquarters of the Celestial Intervention Agency.  
      
        Of course, Garrick had a lot on his mind. He was preparing for the Untempered 
        Schism. That was the most terrifying rite of passage any child in the 
        galaxy went through. But surely he wasn’t THAT distracted by it? 
        He needed talking to if he was. Chrístõ made a note to sit 
        down with his half-brother and dispel some of the worst myths about how 
        dangerous the Schism was. 
      
        He looked into the guest bedroom, but it was empty. Julia must already 
        be up. He headed for the stairs himself. At this rate he would be the 
        last to the table and be teased mercilessly for his tardiness.  
      
        The house was hauntingly familiar. He loved every inch of it. The furniture 
        that was all at least a thousand years old but perfectly preserved as 
        everything was on Gallifrey, the wall hangings, the moulded ceilings and 
        chandeliers. This was his home, the place where he was born, the place 
        he would live his life once his adventures off world were over.  
      
        He walked into the dining room. Everyone was there. His father was at 
        the head of the table, as always. Valena was at his side. So was Julia. 
        Garrick still sat on a cushion to reach the table.  
      
        Caolin the butler was there, as he had always been. The maids were unfamiliar. 
        Maids came and went. They got married and left the service. But Caolin 
        was as constant as the furniture itself.  
      
        “Julia,” his father said in a concerned tone. “Please 
        eat something, child. It would do no good to make yourself ill.” 
      
        “I… am trying,” she said. “But it tastes… 
        of nothing. Food, drink… what is the use without….” 
      
        She started to cry. Chrístõ was shocked. Why was she upset? 
      
        “Julia?” he stepped closer. She looked pale and her eyes were 
        red-rimmed as if she had cried a lot.  
      
        “My dear,” Valena left her seat and came to comfort her. Julia 
        sobbed into her shoulder. Garrick jumped down from the table and ran from 
        the room. Chrístõ started to go after him. Caolin was ahead 
        of him. He found the boy in the White library. He was sitting hunched 
        up on the floor next to the low table where an Earth globe had been since 
        before Chrístõ was born, another legacy of his mother’s 
        life.  
      
        Garrick wasn’t crying. He was a pure-blood Gallifreyan. He had no 
        tear ducts. He couldn’t cry. But his hearts could break, and they 
        were breaking.  
      
        Caolin knelt and embraced him tenderly. Chrístõ wasn’t 
        surprised by that. The butler had been there to dry his tears when he 
        was a boy at least as often as his father had been. Of course, Garrick 
        would turn to him.  
      
        “Little Master,” Caolin said. “It’s all right 
        to grieve. We all do. Your brother was precious to us all. But bear yourself 
        up, my young Lord. You must not dishonour his memory. It is up to you, 
        now, to carry on in his place. You are your father’s heir. You must 
        show him that you are strong and brave and ready to be as great a Time 
        Lord, as courageous a Gallifreyan as your brother was.” 
      
        “Half brother,” Garrick said in a low voice. “Chrístõ… 
        said I was his half brother. He said… he said that he loved me… 
        but to call me brother dishonoured his mother.” 
      
        “I don’t think it matters now, little Lord,” Caolin 
        said. “He is with his mother. Let me take you back to yours. Are 
        you ready to be strong?” 
      
        “Yes, Caolin,” Garrick answered. He swallowed hard and stood 
        on his own two feet, his young head erect, and walked with the butler 
        out of the library. 
      
        Chrístõ stood there in that most familiar room and his head 
        spun with shock. 
      
        He was dead? 
      
        How? 
      
        When? 
      
        No. It wasn’t possible. He didn’t feel dead. He wasn’t 
        in any pain. He couldn’t remember any pain. He couldn’t remember 
        anything happening to him. 
      
        The last thing he remembered was the party aboard the ship. The Beta Deltan 
        team had played host to the Alpha Proxima team whose ship came into synchronous 
        flight with theirs on the last section of the long journey. It had been 
        a pleasant evening. Afterwards, Julia had come back with him to his cabin. 
        They had drunk cocoa in bed before sleeping soundly together. 
      
        He didn’t remember anything after that. But Julia was alive. Whatever 
        had happened, she was safe. He was grateful for that much.  
      
        But if it was true, if he was dead…. 
      
        He reached out and touched the globe on the table. His hand felt solid 
        against it. He felt real. But Garrick hadn’t seen him there. The 
        family had all acted as if he was gone. They were all grief stricken. 
      
        He heard a sound in the White Drawing Room. Somebody had come in there. 
        He recognised Valena’s voice. Julia was with her. Chrístõ 
        went to the door and watched them both. Julia stood at the French door 
        looking out at the terrace. Valena sat demurely.  
      
        “My dear,” she said. “Please come and sit. You’ve 
        hardly eaten. You will be faint if you continue to stand.” 
      
        “I’m all right,” Julia answered. “I like looking 
        out here. It’s a pretty place. Chrístõ’s mother 
        liked it, so I’m told. It was her special place.” 
      
        “Yes, it was,” Valena answered. “This whole suite was 
        hers. When I came here as his Lordship’s second wife, I never quite 
        felt I had the right to change anything about these rooms.” 
      
        “I’m glad. It feels… in here… I feel as if he 
        is still close.” 
      
        “I am close, Julia,” Chrístõ whispered. But 
        she couldn’t hear him. He moved nearer to her, but she didn’t 
        see him.  
      
        “I don’t know what I will do, now,” she added.  
      
        “We want you to stay here, my dear,” Valena said. “I 
        hope you will think about that. Lord de Lœngbærrow… my husband… 
        he….” She sighed deeply. She, too, was grieving. But it fell 
        to her to talk to Julia and she had to be strong. “We both came 
        to love you like a daughter – Chrístõ’s chosen 
        fiancée. I looked forward to the day you would be his wife and 
        take your place as mistress of this house. I know my husband did, too. 
        He wants… he has said… that he looks upon you as a part of 
        this family. He intends to settle a portion upon you.” 
      
        “A… what?” 
      
        “I’m sorry, that is an archaic expression. Julia… I 
        am sure you realise… Garrick is my husband’s heir now. When 
        he is of age… when he marries… HE will inherit everything… 
        this house, the lands, the wealth, the title and patriarchy of the House 
        of Lœngbærrow.” 
      
        “Yes,” Julia answered. “I know that.” 
      
        “Once, at my own father’s behest, I asked his Lordship to 
        pass over his first born son and make my pureblood child his heir. I regretted 
        that many times, since. Now, even more so. I would rather see Garrick 
        disinherited and his brother restored to us.” 
      
        Julia said nothing in reply to that. She didn’t trust herself to 
        speak. 
      
        “As it is, you ARE the one who would have been his wife. My husband 
        intends to provide for you. The Dower House and the income from one of 
        the mines….” 
      
        “What?” Julia was startled. “You mean… he wants 
        to give me a house… and money?” 
      
        “It is a fraction of what would be due to you as Chrístõ’s 
        wife.” 
      
        “I know. But….” 
      
        “He wants you to stay here on Gallifrey, to be his daughter in all 
        but blood.” 
      
        “That is kind of him,” Julia admitted. “But I don’t 
        know if I will stay here. I have thought of going back to Beta Delta. 
        The house Chrístõ bought there… I might live there. 
        I could get used to the memories, I could get used to him not being there… 
        if I was among my own people. I think… Gallifrey… would never 
        feel like home without him.” 
      
        “I understand,” Valena told her. “But please give his 
        Lordship’s idea a little thought. It isn’t merely generosity 
        on his part. There is a selfish reason, too. He doesn’t want to 
        lose you as well as his son.” 
      
        “I know that. I am fond of him. He has been a father to me in so 
        many ways. But I don’t know what I should do. I can’t think 
        any further than getting through one day after another just now. I can’t 
        imagine life without Chrístõ. I miss him so very much.” 
      
        “We all do, my dear. My poor husband is beside himself with grief. 
        Garrick is so unhappy. Even the servants mourn the loss of our dearest 
        blood. I don’t know if a smile will ever cross the threshold of 
        this house again.” 
      
        Christo turned away. He couldn’t bear to hear any more. It was just 
        too painful. He walked out into the garden. As the fresh air touched his 
        tear-wet cheeks he turned and looked. The door was still closed. He couldn’t 
        remember opening it. He had simply wanted to get out of the house and 
        now he was out of it. He was standing on the front driveway looking at 
        the avenue of Cúl nut trees that hid the entrance to the property 
        from the house. He turned left and through a wrought iron gateway into 
        the formal garden. This had never been his favourite part of the gardens. 
        It was too severely managed with neatly cut topiary and lawns and flower 
        beds too carefully arranged. He walked past the largest of those beds, 
        where the crest of the House of Lœngbærrow, the two silvertrees with 
        their branches meeting in the middle, was picked out in silver coloured 
        plants. It was artistic but unlovely in some ways. 
      
        Beyond the formal garden was the smaller kitchen garden with multi-coloured 
        plants that gave off heady scents. The useful herbs had been planted more 
        than a millennia ago by his grandmother, Aineytta de Lœngbærrow, 
        who had tended to them lovingly. He had memories of her in this garden 
        when he was very young. She had given him leaves from some of the bushes 
        to chew, releasing their secrets to his young taste buds.  
      
        Beyond that was the orchard. Apples and pears grew here, Gallifreyan fruits, 
        not the Earth equivalent. It was another place that was redolent of his 
        mother’s time as mistress of the demesne, though he had no personal 
        memories of that time.  
      
        “He is with his mother now,” Caolin had told Garrick, meaning 
        it to comfort the boy. It had not comforted him, though, because it wasn’t 
        true. He was alone. Nobody else could see or hear him. He couldn’t 
        talk to them.  
      
        And his mother was far from him.  
      
        “If I am dead, why am I here?” he asked himself.  
      
        Time Lords did not believe in heaven or hell in the way so many other 
        races did. They did believe in an afterlife of sorts, though. A Time Lord 
        in extremis was meant to join his mind with the Matrix, giving his wisdom 
        to the collective whole for the future benefit of his race. At the same 
        time, his soul was meant to fly to SangC'lune, the Time Lord planet of 
        the dead, where it would reside in peace in the city of pyramids.  
      
        He had never been entirely sure how he felt about that. He had always 
        felt too young to think very seriously about his own death and what lay 
        after it. If he did, he imagined it coming at the end of a long and eventful 
        life, after all twelve of his regenerations was used and he would reside 
        in his pyramid not as a single entity, but as one of thirteen incarnations 
        of himself with a collective memory of his life. 
      
        And all thirteen incarnations would know peace of mind and soul. They 
        would be ready for eternal rest and have no regrets.  
      
        He had no such peace of mind. He wasn’t restful, and he was full 
        of regrets. Chief among them was the nagging thought that he had done 
        something disastrously wrong that caused his premature death and left 
        so many things undone and unsaid.  
      
        How had he died? Until he knew the answer to that question he would know 
        no peace of any kind.  
      
        Perhaps that was why he was here, trapped in a limbo that was so painfully 
        and hauntingly familiar to him, listening to the grief of his family. 
        Perhaps when he knew the truth he would be able to rest, finally, in the 
        peace of his soul’s tomb on that legendary planet that living Time 
        Lords rarely ever visited. 
      
        But who would tell him the truth?  
      
        Any of his family would if he could ask them. Of course they would.  
      
        But he couldn’t ask them. They didn’t know he was there. He 
        could see and hear them, feel all of their pain, but they couldn’t 
        know that. He couldn’t offer them any comfort by telling them that 
        he was there in spirit, at least. 
      
        The sound of the gate opening and closing disturbed his melancholy thoughts. 
        He looked around to see Garrick come into the orchard. The boy was sad. 
        He walked slowly, not with the joy a lad of his age ought to have playing 
        amongst the trees in the sunshine. 
      
        Garrick walked around the trees until he came to one with a rough swing 
        made of rope and a piece of wood attached to it. Chrístõ 
        remembered his father spending a lot of money importing an elaborate swing, 
        slide and climbing frame combination that was erected in the meadow, and 
        Garrick had a lot of fun with it. But right now he preferred the solitude 
        of the orchard and this hand-made swing that he sat on and pushed slowly 
        with one foot while his mind drifted elsewhere. 
      
        “I don’t want you to be miserable, kid,” Chrístõ 
        said, drawing close to him. “And… I don’t want… 
        I don’t think father does, either. I don’t want you to break 
        your hearts trying to be like me, to try to replace me. Be yourself. That’s 
        all anyone ought to be.” 
      
        He reached out to touch his half-brother on the cheek. He was surprised 
        when the boy gave a soft gasp and his eyes widened.  
      
        “Can you sense me?” he asked, his own hearts hopeful. “We’re 
        two different people, but we’ve got a lot in common. Our DNA is 
        close to the same. We even look a little alike. People have said so. They 
        probably drive you nuts telling you how much you look like me when I was 
        your age. But it’s true. We have the same eyes, and the same hands.” 
      
        He put his hand over Garrick’s hand on the rope. They were different 
        sizes, but they were the same shape, long-fingered and dextrous. Garrick 
        turned his head, as if he was aware of something there. He bit his lip 
        nervously.  
      
        “Don’t do that,” Chrístõ whispered. “It’s 
        nearly as bad a habit as sucking your thumb. You’ve only just grown 
        out of that. You are going to face the Schism, soon. Then you’ll 
        be a Time Lord candidate. Thumb sucking, lip biting… I was a nail 
        biter at your age. Father stopped me from doing it. He said it was unbecoming 
        the dignity of our race.” 
      
        “Chrístõ?” Garrick spoke his name in a little 
        more than a murmur. 
      
        “Yes, it’s me,” he said. “I’m here, somehow. 
        Garrick, don’t be scared. You know I could never hurt you. I’m 
        sorry you’ve been upset. I wish it could be different. But don’t 
        be scared of me, please.” 
      
        He kept one hand over Garrick’s. The other he reached out to touch 
        his brother’s face, caressing his rounded, eight year old cheek 
        before moving up over his forehead, feeling his thoughts. The boy wasn’t 
        quite certain. Time Lord children weren’t brought up to believe 
        in ghosts. He had no terms of reference for what he was sensing. 
      
        “I’m here,” he promised. “I’m right here 
        beside you, Garrick. I wish you could see me. I can see you, and I can 
        touch you. But the only way I can make myself known to you is like this.” 
      
        “Chrístõ,” he whispered again. “I miss 
        you.” 
      
        “I know. It’s hard for me, too, seeing you all grieve for 
        me. I wish… so many things. Mostly, I wish I’d told you more 
        often that I love you, kid. I tried for so long to pretend that I didn’t, 
        that I resented you… hated you, even. But I didn’t. You’re 
        my kid brother, and I love you.” 
      
        Garrick nodded. He was too overcome with emotion to speak. 
      
        “I need you to do something for me,” Chrístõ 
        added. “Can you understand?”  
      
        He nodded again. 
      
        Go and talk to Julia for me, please. I need you to ask her something. 
        Nobody else will, and it’s possible she wouldn’t be able to 
        tell anyone else. Please do this for me, Garrick.” 
      
        The boy turned his head as if he was looking at Chrístõ, 
        but he didn’t see anyone. He might have felt his touch. It might 
        just have been the projection into his mind.  
      
        “Ask her this,” Chrístõ told him. Garrick listened 
        carefully. He repeated the words with soundless lip movements. Then he 
        stood up, steadying the rope swing, and walked away. Chrístõ 
        stood there for a moment then he pushed the swing hard. Garrick turned 
        and looked at the sudden movement, then quickened his step as he ran back 
        to the house.  
      
        Chrístõ followed him. He went in through the kitchen where 
        the staff turned pitying eyes on the boy but said nothing. He took the 
        back stairs to the middle floor where the family bedrooms were. Garrick 
        knocked gently on Julia’s door and heard her voice calling out from 
        inside. He stepped into the feminine room that Julia had made hers for 
        many years as a welcome visitor to the house. She was lying on the bed, 
        but she sat up as Garrick entered and held out her arms to him. He ran 
        to her embrace. 
      
        “Julia,” he said. “Can you tell me… how my brother 
        died?”  
      
        “Oh, sweetheart,” she responded. “Do you really need 
        to go through that, now?” 
      
        “Yes,” he answered. “I want to know. Please, tell me, 
        Julia.”  
      
        She took a deep breath and sat back on the bed, letting Garrick sit beside 
        her, comforted by her arm around his shoulder.  
      
        “He died… bravely. That probably won’t surprise anyone. 
        He saved thousands of lives, and was trying to prevent more people dying, 
        but he just ran out of time.”  
      
        Garrick didn’t say anything, but he gave a quizzical look. 
      
        “It was after the party – we had been host to the people from 
        Alpha Proxima. Their ship was travelling in formation with ours. But it 
        was much smaller, and older. Its systems were nowhere near as good as 
        ours. In the middle of the night, the emergency alarms sounded. Everyone 
        was told to evacuate into the lifepods. Chrístõ insisted 
        that I should stay in the TARDIS. He said it was better than any lifepod 
        ever invented. And that’s certainly true. Because if a lifepod was 
        still on board when the two ships collided it would have been destroyed. 
        I was safe. But… he was outside, on the bridge of the Alpha Proxima 
        ship, trying to restore its navigation drive, when it collided with the 
        Starship Harlan Ellison, destroying them both.” 
      
        “Why didn’t he try to get away into his TARDIS?” Garrick 
        asked. “He could have done that, couldn’t he?”  
      
        “He could have. But there were still about a hundred people on the 
        Alpha Proxima ship, cut off from the lifepods by failing systems. He was 
        trying to save them. He couldn’t just run for his own life and abandon 
        them. He tried to the very last moment. I was listening to him on the 
        communicator. He detailed everything he was doing to the drive. I think 
        he almost had it. Another few minutes and he might have saved both ships. 
        I keep thinking about it. Before he went to the Alpha Proxima ship, before 
        we knew there were people trapped there, he went to the lifepod station 
        on our deck. It was his job. He was designated. He had the register of 
        everyone who was supposed to be in the pod. He made sure they were all 
        aboard first and the pod safely launched. Then we found out about the 
        people who were trapped. But it was too late then. If he’d gone 
        straight to the other ship, he would have had the time to stop it all 
        happening. It wouldn’t have mattered if the pod had launched on 
        time, because the ships wouldn’t have collided. But Chrístõ 
        was a good, brave Gallifreyan who did his duty…. I’m proud 
        of him for everything he did, for getting so many people to safety, and 
        then for trying to save the others, even if… that one time… 
        he failed.” 
      
        She was crying, now. Garrick, though he was only eight years old and a 
        Gallifreyan who didn’t really understand crying, hugged her.  
      
        “I’m sorry I failed,” Chrístõ whispered. 
        That word sounded terrible coming from her lips, even more so from his 
        own. “I’m sorry.” 
      
        He turned away and left them both there, comforting each other. There 
        was nothing to be gained from staying near them. There was nothing to 
        be gained from any of this.  
      
        “What is the point?” he asked. “All right, I failed. 
        But I couldn’t have done anything else. I couldn’t stop trying 
        to save those people. I couldn’t walk away from them and save myself. 
        THAT really would have been failure. I TRIED. If I could have done it 
        another way – if I could have done what Julia suggested…. 
        But I can’t, can I? I’m dead. It’s too late.” 
      
        Or was it? He thought he was standing outside Julia’s bedroom in 
        Mount Lœng House on Gallifrey. But he could hear sounds that were 
        far away from there. He could hear voices calling out anxiously, and above 
        that the insistent noise of a klaxon alarm sounding the ‘abandon 
        ship’.  
      
        “Chrístõ!” Julia’s voice called out above 
        the alarm. He opened his eyes and quickly adjusted to the low level emergency 
        lighting in the room. He briefly wondered why it was since this wasn’t 
        a real berth but the TARDIS disguised as one.  
      
        Then he remembered thinking that once before. He remembered the noise, 
        and Julia shaking him awake in the dark. 
      
        “I’m not dead,” he said. “I’ve got another 
        chance.” 
      
        “What?” Julia was puzzled. “Chrístõ, nobody 
        is dead. But they will be soon. We’ve got to get off the ship. It’s 
        in trouble.” 
      
        “Yes. Yes, I know.” He pulled on his shoes and his leather 
        jacket over his black silk pyjamas. Julia put her slippers and dressing 
        gown on. “Take this,” he said to her, pressing a slim electronic 
        notepad into her hands. “It’s the register for the lifepod. 
        It should be my job, but I’m putting you in charge. I’ve got 
        to do something else. Check the names, and when everyone is aboard, seal 
        the door and launch the pod. Don’t worry about me.” 
      
        “Chrístõ….” Julia began to protest. He 
        turned and grasped her in his arms. He kissed her tenderly, but briefly. 
        There was no time to waste.  
      
        “Go, sweetheart. Do what has to be done, just as I will.” 
      
        He was reaching for the control that opened up the console room. Julia 
        blinked at the overhead light, then turned and slipped out into the corridor 
        outside. She turned right and headed to the lifepod. It was large, accommodating 
        up to fifty people. On other levels, other corridors, the same thing was 
        happening, all over the ship. But she couldn’t worry about that. 
        Her responsibility was this pod. She stood inside the door and began calling 
        out names, marking them off the register, just as Chrístõ 
        had told her to do.  
      
        Chrístõ felt lonely without Julia. He was also a little 
        confused. If that had been a dream, then it was a very good reason not 
        to dream. If it was some kind of vision of his future it was a cruel one. 
        He still felt the pain and grief that he and all of his loved ones had 
        felt.  
      
        It must have been some kind of forewarning, he reasoned. And if so, then 
        he was already changing events. He had sent Julia into the lifepod with 
        the register. If he survived, then he might have some explaining to do 
        about that. But she was safe, and so were the others he was responsible 
        for. Meanwhile, he was free to get to the stricken Alpha Proxima ship 
        and try to avert the disaster. 
      
        The crew on the bridge were in despair. They were only a few steps away 
        from outright panic. The arrival of the TARDIS in the midst of them all 
        didn’t help matters. 
      
        “All right, shut up,” Chrístõ said. “Somebody 
        switch off that siren. It doesn’t make any difference. Your navigation 
        drive is out of line. You’re going to crash into the Harlan Ellison, 
        unless you get out of my way.” 
      
        There was no reason why they should have obeyed him except the tone of 
        authority in his voice, the inheritance of his aristocratic race. It was 
        enough. He went to the navigation computer and studied it carefully, then 
        he opened up a panel and began to rewire with a speed that made those 
        looking on dizzy.  
      
        “Instead of standing around like lemons, somebody take a look at 
        the internal electronics,” he said without pausing in his efforts. 
        “There are people on deck eleven who can’t reach the lifepod 
        because of bulkhead failure.” 
      
        “He’s right,” somebody said and he was gratified to 
        see that they made the effort. He carried on with what he was doing. If 
        he got it right, if he could pull the ship out of its dangerously decaying 
        course, then it wouldn’t matter. But if he failed again, then it 
        would be some comfort to know that everyone else was safe. 
      
        “This ship should have been sent to the scrapyard,” he noted 
        aloud. “Not on an intergalactic expedition. What were they thinking 
        of on Alpha Proxima?” 
      
        “Cutting costs,” the first mate replied. “There was 
        opposition in the Assembly to sending a contingent to the Olympiad. Proxima 
        is hardly a rich colony.” 
      
        “I know,” Chrístõ commented tersely. “I’ve 
        been there. Even so, I didn’t think they were stupid enough to cut 
        corners with passenger safety.”  
      
        Nobody had any answer to that. He looked at the substandard wiring, the 
        mass of melted circuitry that had caused the problem in the first place. 
        He had time, but did he have enough? 
      
        “Get me a communicator,” he said. “I need to talk to 
        somebody.” 
      
        A portable device was brought to him. It was voice activated. He didn’t 
        stop working as he scanned the frequencies until he found the two way 
        radio aboard the lifepod Julia had boarded.  
      
        “Are you safe?” he asked her. “The pod has launched?” 
      
        “Yes,” she answered. “Chrístõ, what about 
        you? Where are you?” 
      
        He told her. He heard her gasp.  
      
        “I’m trying to stop the ships from colliding,” he said. 
        “If I can do that, then the pods can be recalled. Everyone will 
        be all right. We’ll reach the Olympiad after all. But if I can’t….” 
      
        “Chrístõ!” Julia’s voice was sharp. “Chrístõ, 
        don’t risk your life. Get off there before it’s too late.” 
      
        “I’ll try,” he answered. “Julia… I love 
        you. I want to tell you that.” 
      
        “I love you, too,” she replied. “And I need you alive. 
        Please don’t… don’t do anything heroic like… like 
        staying to the last minute. I don’t want to lose you this way.” 
      
        “I promise I won’t do anything ‘heroic!’” 
        he told her. “Stay there, sweetheart. Stay on the communicator. 
        I need to hear your voice.” 
      
        She stayed on the line. He spoke to her as he worked. She replied with 
        a forced cheerfulness. He knew it was frightening in the lifepods, floating 
        in space with emergency life support systems. But she was safe.  
      
        “Sir, we can’t get the bulkheads open,” the first mate 
        told him. “Those people… they’re still trapped.” 
      
        “Try harder,” Chrístõ responded. “Where’s 
        the captain?”  
      
        “He… was off duty when the crisis began,” the communications 
        officer said. “I think he….” 
      
        Chrístõ carefully calmed himself. He couldn’t let 
        his hands shake as he worked. But his anger seethed, all the same. It 
        was merely a tradition, not any intergalactic law, that said that a Captain 
        had to go down with his ship. Even so, for the man to have got into a 
        lifepod while there were still passengers trapped aboard, as well as crew 
        members, was disgraceful. He would see that the man was disciplined when 
        this was over.  
      
        If he survived. The memory of ‘being dead’ was still chillingly 
        fresh in his mind. He still didn’t understand what had happened, 
        but he knew he had a chance this time – just the one. He had a chance 
        to get it right and save everyone… including himself.  
      
        He connected two wires and soldered them to the damaged circuit board 
        with his sonic screwdriver. There was a reassuring noise from the navigation 
        computer. He looked at the screen. It was working, briefly at least. The 
        patched wiring would overload in minutes. The circuits would be destroyed 
        completely this time.  
      
        So he couldn’t waste time. He typed rapidly, his fingers flying 
        across the keyboard.  
      
        The circuits overloaded. The smell of burnt wiring assailed his nostrils. 
        The screen went blank. The keyboard was dead. Navigation was down again. 
         
      
        But he felt the difference beneath his feet. The few minutes when he had 
        been in control had worked a change.  
      
        Was it enough of a change? 
      
        “Everyone follow me,” he said. He stepped into the TARDIS 
        and went to the console. Behind him, the crew slowly stepped aboard, staring 
        at the relatively dimensional room they found themselves in.  
      
        “Close the door,” Chrístõ told the last one. 
        “It’s ok. I bought us time. That cranky old ship isn’t 
        going to collide with anything now. It’s heading towards the Barrian 
        magnetic field, which will rip it to pieces as surely as the wrecking 
        crew that ought to have had it years ago. But it won’t come within 
        the field for another three days. That’s plenty of time for me to 
        pick up the trapped passengers and take everybody over to the Harlan Ellison. 
        It’ll be somebody else’s headache how to accommodate the extra 
        crew and passengers for the rest of the journey to the Hydra sector.” 
      
        Picking up the passengers was a simple manoeuvre for the TARDIS. Taking 
        them to the safety of the other ship was even easier. While that was happening 
        he opened a communications channel, first a general one that connected 
        with all of the lifepods, telling them that the ship was safe, and that 
        the recall would begin in a short time. Then he made a private call to 
        Julia. 
      
        “It’ll take a while to sort everything out,” he said. 
        “I want to make a formal report about the state of that ship and 
        its captain. But after that, I want to take a few days out. I need to 
        go home.” 
      
        “Home… to Gallifrey, you mean?” 
      
        “Yes. I need to spend some time with my father. If you’d rather 
        stay on the ship with your friends….” 
      
        “Are you kidding?” Julia responded. “If you need to 
        go to Gallifrey then I’m coming with you. I’m kind of fed 
        up of space travel myself at the moment.” 
      
      It wasn’t until late in the evening of his first day back home 
        that Chrístõ got to talk to his father privately. He was 
        in his bedroom, the one that still bore the hallmarks of teenage pre-occupations. 
        He looked out of the window as the Gallifreyan sun went down over the 
        demesne. It was so comfortingly familiar, and this time it was real.  
      
        “What happened?” he asked his father. “It couldn’t 
        just be a dream. It felt too real. But I’ve never had precognitive 
        visions before. And if I did… it was so detailed. Besides, a vision 
        of my death… of being a ghost, watching you all mourning me….” 
      
        “I don’t know,” his father admitted. “It sounds 
        like precognition. Except that you changed it. You stopped the collision. 
        You save the civilians. You saved your own life. You changed your destiny.” 
      
        “Did I break any Laws of Time doing it?” Chrístõ 
        wondered.  
      
        “I’m not sure I would care if you did,” his father told 
        him. “I’m glad you’re alive. You’re my son, my 
        heir. And I love you. If you get any more precognitions like that, then 
        go ahead and change things. I’ll always be glad that you did.” 
      
        Chrístõ sighed with relief. He really felt as if it was 
        over now that he had told his father the whole story. Now he could put 
        the whole frightening experience behind him.  
      
        “Garrick wants to spend the day with you tomorrow,” Lord de 
        Lœngbærrow added. “Maybe you could take him out for a drive. 
        He likes being with you. Get him to talk about the Schism, if you can. 
        He’s starting to get nervous about it, and you can reassure him 
        better than I can.” 
      
        “I’ll do that,” Chrístõ promised happily. 
         
      
       
      
       
        
      
       
      
      
      
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