Julia’s choice of where she wanted to go for her
birthday surprised Chrístõ.
She told him she wanted to go ‘home’.
What she meant by ‘home’ was Cambridge, England, on Earth.
That was where she and her family had come from when they set off with
high hopes for their new life in the Earth colonies of Beta Delta where
her aunt and uncle and cousins had already gone.
Chrístõ had been doubtful at first. He was worried that
old, bad memories would come back to her. But she assured him it would
be all right. In any case, she pointed out, they didn’t need to
go to the twenty-fourth century. An earlier time, when it was less built
up and overcrowded would be better.
Chrístõ chose the early twenty-first century. It was a period
he felt at home in. His clothes fitted. He took Julia to all of the most
famous sites in Cambridge, most of them around the old university colleges,
of course. They had a picnic lunch sitting on ‘The Backs’,
by the River Cam, with the elegant King’s College Chapel as a backdrop
to the scene. They contemplated going on the river itself in a punt, but
though Chrístõ assured her that he could do it, Julia decided
it was just a bit too much of a touristy thing to do.
In the afternoon, they travelled to what was still the suburbs of the
city to the Cambridge Observatory. Julia explained why that held such
an attraction to her.
“We lived near here,” she said as they walked up the path
between well-cut lawns towards the doric portico of the nineteenth century
building with the dome of the original telescope housing above it. “On
a housing estate just over there beyond those trees. I don’t think
the houses would be built yet. But I remember being taken to see the telescope
here when I was eight. It was old fashioned. I think it’s a bit
outdated even in this century, but it was still used. I got to look through
it at the Orion constellation. We were getting ready to leave Earth and
go there. We were waiting for the visas and the travel passes. I was thrilled
to actually look at the part of space we were going to travel to. I told
the man who was in charge of the telescope and he was really sweet and
nice to me and let me look twice, even though there was a queue.”
“It’s mid-afternoon,” Chrístõ pointed
out. “You won’t be able to see Orion this time, I’m
afraid.”
“I know. But the tour is interesting. I’m sure you’ll
like it. Lot’s of science history. There might even be something
you don’t know. Even if you are a Time Lord and know all there is
to know about the universe.”
She was teasing him, of course. She always did. But now he had a defence
against her. He turned and kissed her on the lips, gently but insistently.
She was sixteen today. A child no longer. And he was enjoying the freedom
to do that whenever he chose. She sighed happily as he drew back from
the kiss and then reminded him that the tour started in five minutes.
He took her by the hand and they hurried towards the entrance.
It was true, of course, that he did know everything there was to know
about the universe and how it worked. At least, his mind, having once
glimpsed eternity through the Untempered Schism, and having been expanded
by the Rite of Transcension, contained all knowledge of the universe within
it. In practice, he had to admit some things were not always instantly
recalled. And besides, that was just the physics, the dynamics of it.
What interested him, and kept him enthusiastic to see so much of the universe
for himself, was how other people than Time Lords understood it. It especially
fascinated him to see how the Human race’s perception of the universe
had come together, piece by piece, through the endeavours of thinking
men who observed and calculated and constructed theories that explained
the mysteries of the cosmos. And if the spiel the tour guide was giving
them, in layman’s terms for the tourists, was of little value to
him, he was thrilled to be in a place where that race perception of the
universe had been advanced in so many ways.
“We’ve come about a century too late, really,” Chrístõ
said later when they stepped out of the observatory and blinked to see
how bright the sunshine was outside. “I would have loved to have
been here for that lecture when Arthur Eddington proved that Newton was
wrong and Einstein was right and there were no simple, easy equations
for anything. That was one of the seminal points in the history of the
Human race. It’s not too much of an exaggeration to say that your
ambitions to break the bonds of Earth and go out among the stars began
on that day, when it was proved that gravity wasn’t a constant and
immutable thing.”
“You mean... I live on a different planet because of one rather
dull little experiment from 1919?”
“It’s one of the factors.” He smiled. “You don’t
see it, do you? The way every strand of knowledge comes together. The
way one tiny piece of understanding leads to another piece. Like specks
of spacedust that will, eventually, become a planet.”
But that was a bit too much of a metaphor. He smiled at her bemused expression.
“How about, like the stipples of colour in an impressionist painting
that come together to make a whole picture?”
“Do you mind very much marrying me even if I don’t find that
sort of thing exciting?” she asked. “I mean, I think I know
enough about gravity from what it does when I mis-time a handhold on the
asymmetric bars.” She grimaced with the thought of too many times
when gravity had not been her friend.
“Of course I don’t mind,” he answered. “As long
as you try not to look too bored when I go on about those things. You’re
a born gymnast. I am a born scientist. It’s in my blood, in my very
bones, my molecules. Of course, my people knew all about these things
millions of years before yours even began to ask what the stars were.
You were always playing catch-up. But some Humans are clever enough to
impress even us.”
“Some Time Lord’s aren’t as clever as they think they
are,” Julia responded. “Don’t forget you’re part
Human.”
“That’s why I’m so proud of the things humans do,”
he answered her. “I’m proud of my mother’s race. Mind
you, it’s frustrating, sometimes, seeing how slow it is, how long
it took for you all to gain a full understanding of things. The temptation
to drop hints here and there and help you along…. But that would
be a very bad thing to do. There are some very severe punishments for
Time Lord’s who interfere with natural causality.”
“Don’t do that, then,” Julia told him. She looked at
his face and frowned. “Seriously, don’t do it, Chrístõ.
I don’t want you to get in trouble.”
“I won’t.” He could see that did worry her, so he sought
a way to change the subject. “Did you know that Time Lords are one
of the few races in the universe who can actually make their bodies defy
gravity. The artron energy we all carry within us… we can control
it, make it work against the ordinary laws of physics.”
“You mean you can fly?”
“Not fly, exactly. But I can levitate… it’s a skill…
part of the meditative disciplines.”
“I’ve never seen you do it.”
“That’s because you don’t often see me when I practice
the deep meditations. It’s something I do alone, when you’re
not around me. When I’m in my meditation room. You’re not
really meant to see it.”
“Oh, go on,” she said. “Or I won’t believe you.
I’ll think you’re just showing off and fibbing to me.”
“Fib? Me, fib? I am a Time Lord. We don’t fib.”
He ought to have known better, of course. He shouldn’t have risen
to the challenge. She was only teasing him, after all. He knew he had
nothing to prove to her. He blamed it on his Human side, the emotional
side that felt the need to show off to her. Though in truth, he had no
such excuse. His Gallifreyan discipline should have been strong enough.
Except his Gallifreyan side wanted to show off to her, too.
He looked around quickly to see if anyone could see. Then he stood very
straight and still and held his arms out from his side. He closed his
eyes and concentrated on the molecules of artron energy within his own
body and made them move around his body in the opposite direction.
When he opened his eyes again he was floating a good three feet from the
ground and turning slowly around. Julia was definitely impressed as she
looked up at him. He could feel her thoughts turning around, wondering
if she could incorporate his ability into a pas de deux.
“Get down from there this instant!” shouted an angry voice
that distracted both of them. Julia looked around to see a tall, thin
man bearing down upon them across the lawn. Chrístõ’s
concentration broke and gravity caught up with him, landing him hard on
the grass. He stood up, gathering his damaged dignity around him and looked
at the angry man.
“What do you think you’re doing, showing off in front of a
Human? What Academy graduated one so foolish, so irresponsible as that?
Arcalian, Cerulean?”
“Prydonian,” he replied, his injured pride bristling so much
that he was incautious. He knew even before he mentioned the names of
two rival academies that this was a Time Lord. But even so he shouldn’t
have given himself away so easily.
“Never,” the man replied. “The Prydonian Academy breeds
Renegades and Rebels, sometimes downright criminals. But it doesn’t
breed fools.”
“I’m… not a fool,” he protested. “I was…
I was…”
He stopped trying to make excuses. He bowed his head and stretched out
his hands in front of him, palms up. “My Lord, I apologise for behaving
in a manner unbecoming a Time Lord of Gallifrey. I was acting foolishly,
showing off for my girlfriend. I have no plea to make. I admit my fault
and beg your forgiveness.”
“That is better,” the tall man said to him. “look up,
young man. Look into my eyes. Let me see.”
He was aware of Julia reaching out to hold his hand. He knew she was confused,
even a little frightened. But this was a Time Lord matter and for the
moment she was outside of his thoughts. He felt the sharp touch of the
other Time Lord’s mind on his. He felt the questions in his head.
‘Who are you?’ ‘Of what House are you?’ He answered
the questions in his mind.
“Yes, I know you,” the Time Lord said at last.
“I don’t think so, sir,” Chrístõ answered.
“You must be mistaken. I am sure we have never met.”
“No, not in your timeline. But in mine, we have met many times.
Our first meeting took place after the others. Isn’t that a fine
paradox, Son of Lœngbærrow. You’ll have a different name, a
different face when your lifetime catches up with mine. But it will still
be you.”
“If these meetings are in my future, you shouldn’t speak of
them,” Chrístõ pointed out. “That is nearly
as dangerous as my foolishness before.”
“Indeed, it is,” the Time Lord conceded. “You are not
a fool. Just given to impulsive and hot headed actions…. Something
you never quite grow out of, I may add, at risk of compounding the paradox.”
“But who are you?” Julia asked, impatient to remind both Time
Lords that she was still there. Even Chrístõ seemed to have
forgotten her.
“I am Professor Urban Chronotos,” he answered. “Of St.
Cedd’s College in this city of ivory towers and great learning.”
“That’s a very unlikely name,” Chrístõ
pointed out. “I’m surprised Humans don’t question it.
And I don’t believe for one minute that is your real Gallifreyan
name. I wonder…” He thought about what Chronotis had said
before. “The Prydonian academy breeds Renegades, Rebels and Ciminals.”
“You may keep on wondering. That is my business. But you…
certainly not a criminal. A loyal and law-abiding citizen despite youthful
frivolity. A touch of the Rebel, maybe. A Renegade, possibly. Oh, yes…
a touch of the Renegade in your soul.”
Chrístõ’s eyes flashed angrily. To suggest that he
was a Renegade was to question his loyalty to Gallifrey, to question his
whole existence.
And yet, he remembered, another man had said the same of him. His friend
and mentor, Mai Li Tuo had said it, and even though he had never explained
himself, he always felt that Li was telling him something important about
himself.
And it seemed as if the man who called himself Professor Chronotis saw
the same thing in him.
“I have not been home for such a long time,” Chronotis said.
“And you are the first of our kind I have met since… since
you last came my way… it must be twenty years ago. Will you and
your young lady come and take tea with me. I should like to hear the news
from home.”
Chrístõ looked at Chronotis. His moods seemed positively
mercurial. First he was angry and superior. Then insulting. The next,
he was pleading with him to come and be sociable. His first thought was
to say no. But then curiosity got the better of him. He wanted to know
more about this strange exiled Time Lord. And after all, it was getting
close to tea time and his only other plan had been to walk back into the
city and find a café.
“I think that would be very nice,” Julia said, making the
decision for him.
“Do you have transport?” Chrístõ asked. “St.
Cedd’s is a fair walk.”
“I do, indeed, have transport,” Chronotis added. “Come
along, both of you.”
He brought them to what looked like a small round wooden hut used by the
gardeners to store equipment. But he opened it with a key with the seal
of Rassilon on the fob.
Of course, Chrístõ knew it was a TARDIS. He felt the dimensional
transference as he stepped through the door. Julia guessed as much from
the fact that it was so much bigger on the inside. But it didn’t
look like a TARDIS. It looked like a drawing room and study combined with
a private library. It even had an open fire with soft chairs around it
and logs burning in the hearth. It was a pleasant, old fashioned room
that felt distinctly cosy.
“Do people worry when you leave an empty hole in the building where
your room should be?” Chrístõ asked. “I did
that once. I never dared go back to see what anyone thought.”
Chronotis laughed and didn’t answer the question. He went to what
looked like an upright piano in the corner of the room and folded back
the lid. Beneath was something far more complex than a set of piano keys
but he played it like a virtuoso. Chrístõ felt the very
slight vibration that told him they had moved. Julia didn’t notice
until she looked out of the window and saw the view down to the Cam from
St. Cedd’s College.
“Now,” their host said. “Tea… sandwiches, cake.
I’ll have them all in a jiffy. Why don’t you both sit down?”
He disappeared through an inner door. Julia sat by the fireside. Chrístõ
restlessly perused the library, noting a mixture of Earth literature,
science, cookery books, and a few leather bound tomes in Gallifreyan text.
He opened one and noted that it should have been returned to the Great
Library of the Prydonian Academy three hundred years ago. There would
be one hefty fine owing on it!
“Who is he?” Julia asked. “And why were you so…
deferent to him?”
“He’s a Time Lord. One of great age and learning – if
possibly a bit eccentric. I’m not even two hundred. It’s my
place to defer to him. Besides… he was right. I was being stupid,
showing off in a public place.”
“It was awesome, by the way. You GLOWED. You looked like an angel.”
“I’d better not do it again, though. I don’t want to
get into trouble.”
“What was all that about meeting him in your future and his past?”
“That’s perfectly possible,” Chrístõ answered.
“I mean, we’re both Time Lords. We are never in the same place
for long. He could have met me many times.”
“And the different name, different face? How does that fit in?”
“Different face is obvious. I’m going to meet him much later,
when I’ve regenerated. The name… well, he’s not using
his own name. Chronotis is not a Gallifreyan family. And I’ve been
known by quite a few names already. I was Theta Sigma at school. Li called
me Liu Shang Hui. I had another name when I studied Sun Ko Du on Malvoria
and another one again once when I was in ancient Egypt. Even on Beta Delta
IV, I’m called de Leon, because it’s too much trouble to keep
spelling Lœngbærrow to people. I have already had lots of names.
Who knows how many I’ll have by the time I’m on my second
or third regeneration. There’s nothing sinister in that. Or in him
choosing another name, either.
“I never said there was,” Julia pointed out.
No, she didn’t. Chrístõ had been telling himself that
much. Because he had been wondering about Chronotis. He wondered why so
much of his mind was closed off behind walls that he couldn’t penetrate
even when his own mind had been an open book. Even Li Tuo didn’t
close off so much of himself.
No, that wasn’t true. Li had hidden a lot when they first met. The
trust that he gave came later. And even then, many of Li’s secrets
were only revealed at the end.
Chronotis didn’t know him enough to put down his walls for him.
Maybe he would in that future time he had spoken of, but not yet.
The old man returned with a large tray groaning under the weight of an
English tea for three. Chrístõ wondered if he needed help,
but Chronotis was a Time Lord, after all. His frail, elderly appearance
belied hidden strength. He put the tray down on a low table and sat to
pour.
“So, my boy,” he said pleasantly. “Tell me of Gallifrey.
How does she stand?”
“Not as well as she should,” Chrístõ answered.
“You… have been a long time away?” He thought of the
overdue library book.
“Too long,” he answered. “Before you were born, anyway.”
“Then… the news will shock you,” he said. And it did.
Chronotis continued to pour tea and pass around sandwiches and cakes.
But Chrístõ’s description of Gallifrey at war, the
list of great names that were dead when the reckoning was made, grieved
him.
“But… if you knew Chrístõ in the future…”
Julia said. “Then all this was in his past. How come you didn’t
know of it?”
“Those later meetings we had other things to speak of. This is,
indeed, a shock to me. But I have the consolation of knowing that Gallifrey
will be back to its old, arrogant, maddening self before this young man
reaches his first regeneration. We will both seek saner places from which
to view from afar the planet we love but whose laws and customs make us
wring our hands with frustration.”
“I am already at that stage,” Chrístõ said.
“But my exile is of my own choice. I… suspect it is not so
with you.”
“You are observant, boy. But you surely didn’t expect an answer
from me?”
“I did not. I only… wanted you to know that I understand.
And that… If you don’t wish anyone on Gallifrey to know where
you are, I shall not be the one to tell tales.”
Chronotis nodded. Then he smiled warmly at Julia.
“Let us not be so earnest. I understand it is this young lady’s
birthday?”
“She is sixteen,” Chrístõ said. “Sweet
sixteen and only a year to go now before our Bond of Intent can be replaced
with a Bond of Betrothal.”
“Almost a woman,” Chronotis said with a smile. “Old
enough for a sweetheart’s kisses, yet young enough for cakes with
candles on! We don’t do that on our world, of course. There would
not be enough cake for the candles. But… since we are in private,
a little of the frivolity that was so inappropriate in a public place
might be indulged this once.”
Chronotis winked and then waved his hands in the air. Julia laughed as
he created a hologram of a huge birthday cake with sixteen candles. It
hung in the air in front of her. She blew on the unreal candles and they
went out. So did the cake, turning into sixteen white doves that flew
away into the ether. She laughed and her eyes shone as Chrístõ
sang ‘Happy Birthday’ to her in his sweet, soft voice.
“There should be presents,” Chronotis said. “That is
a tradition on both our worlds, anyway.” He stood and went to a
big chest of drawers along the back wall of the room and returned to present
her with a small silver box with Gallifreyan symbols on its six sides.
Chrístõ looked at them and confirmed that they were ancient
Gallifreyan, a dialect only taught to the highest students in the academies
for use in the ancient rites. The text was disjointed, but it seemed to
be an invocation of protection for its owner.
Protection against what?
“It’s just a pretty trinket,” Chronotis assured her.
“A Gallifreyan puzzle box. There is a secret way to open it, and
if you work it out without the help of your young Prydonian you’ll
be a very clever girl. But if you can’t, it’s a thing of beauty
for you to enjoy.”
“I like it. Thank you very much,” Julia said. “Chrístõ
gave me this.” She proudly displayed the wristwatch on her arm.
It was a silver bracelet with a watch face in mother of pearl and tiny
but perfect diamonds marking the hours. There were thirteen of them. It
was a Gallifreyan watch, telling Gallifreyan time. It was a step closer
to when she and Chrístõ would be married and her days would
be twenty six hours long.
“We Lords of Time make very exquisite timepieces,” Chronotis
said. “We don’t even need them. We are born with an innate
sense of time. It is in our souls. But we love to build beautiful mechanisms
that measure it.”
“I love it,” Julia said. “I love all the things Chrístõ
has given me. I own more diamonds than anyone I know, except Queen Cirena
of Adano-Ambrado. And he intends to give me more of them. I even have
a leotard with diamonds woven into the fabric. I wore it for the interschool
finals. For my rhythmic floor routine.”
“It dazzled the judges,” Chrístõ said proudly.
“So did you.”
“Young love,” Chronotis said. “Even our stoic race needs
it from time to time.”
They spent a pleasant hour in company with the Professor. Chrístõ
was almost sorry to go at the end of it. But they had plans for the evening.
A nice restaurant, a dress that Julia had not yet let him see, fruits
of their last visit to Adano-Ambrado. And since she was only sixteen,
and starting to tire as she sat by the fireplace, she needed a rest first.
Chronotis watched the two young people from the window and then turned
around and stood in the middle of the room. He sighed heavily.
“You’ve seen him?” he asked the apparently empty air.
There was a shimmer and a vague ghost of a half corporeal female coalesced
in front of him. “Will he do?”
“He will do very well,” replied the female in a voice like
the tinkle of breaking glass. “He is young. He has so much life
within him. Enough for my needs. The bargain is made. He will be mine.
Your soul will be free.”
“My soul is far from free,” Chronotis answered. “You
have no idea what I have done. In all these years… I have been a
Renegade, a fugitive. I have committed what they call crimes on my world.
But I have never, until this moment, felt I was a traitor. Not just to
my world, to my people. But to a friend who has saved my wretched life
more than once. I am ashamed. I am disgusted with myself. My soul is…”
“There is no going back. You made the bargain.”
“Yes,” he said. “Yes. I did. And may I burn in the Rift
of Medusa for it.”
The apparition faded. He shook his head sadly. Free? He hadn’t been
free for a long time. But if the boy had the strength he thought he had,
if the girl’s love was more than the fleeting fire of youth, maybe
they both would be in the end.
Julia took her afternoon nap on the pull out cabin bed in the console
room. Chrístõ noted that she still had the Professor’s
gift in her hand. She had fallen asleep trying to work out how it opened.
He himself refreshed himself with a light, slow meditation, one where
he actually did practice that levitation that had got him into so much
trouble with the professor. It was very relaxing, feeling that gravity
was nothing to do with him and that no solid part of the TARDIS even touched
his body.
He roused himself to bathe and dress. Julia did the same. He chose a black
silk suit with silver flecks in it. His shirt was black silk and the tie
was silver-grey. He pinned it with a silver ornament representing the
silver trees of Lœngbærrow. He had collar studs and cufflinks with
Gallifreyan diamonds set in silver. He looked ready to accompany a young
woman who would also be wearing diamonds.
When she came through to the console room, though, he was astonished.
He was used to Queen Cirena’s dressmaker creating beautiful and
sophisticated gowns that nevertheless recognised that she was still a
girl.
But this was different. This one did the exact opposite. This dress proclaimed
that she was no longer a child. The soft chiffon satin in deep red fell
from her trim waist to her ankles in soft flutes while the bodice was
sculpted around feminine curves. And it was a halter neck, with a low
back. Her first grown up dress.
Her hair, fastened up with feathers and glittering jewels was grown up,
too. Her make up was light but distinctive. She wore diamonds around her
neck and ears, as well as bracelets and a silver anklet that he glimpsed
between the dress hem and the high heeled shoes that made her seem two
inches taller.
“You are beautiful,” he said. “You always were. But…
you’re even more beautiful now.” He reached to hold her, kissing
her carefully made up lips. Twenty-fourth century lip colour didn’t
smudge, no matter how much pressure was put upon the lips. And it was
just as well.
“Come on, my birthday girl,” he said as she put a cashmere
cloak over her dress for warmth and he took her by the arm. He had already
brought the TARDIS to Bridge Street, where the restaurant of his choice
was.
Of course, Julia had dined with him at banquets on Adano-Ambrado and the
SS Isle of Capri, at some of the finest places in the galaxy. She had
eaten formal meals at Mount Lœng House, on Gallifrey, where their
chef was one of the best. So the fact that Brasserie Chez Gérard
offered the finest French cuisine didn’t impress her especially.
But she enjoyed being shown to her seat by a maitre-d with a French accent
who called her mademoiselle and passed her a wine menu. She looked at
it hesitantly and Chrístõ took it from her. He glanced at
the list of fine champagnes and thought about ordering a bottle. But this
was Earth in the early twenty-first century, and Julia was only sixteen.
He would get the restaurant in trouble if they served her alcohol. He
ordered a non-alcoholic fruit cocktail for her while they were choosing
their food and a Martini for himself and asked for an iced bottle of sparkling
water to be served with their meal.
“What would you like for your starter?” he asked Julia as
she studied the menu.
“I was thinking of the escargot,” she answered. Then she laughed,
softly. “Do you remember the ones that were served at that restaurant
on Pi-Lossic. Each one was about the size of a pigeon. Cooked in the shell
in a creamy sauce. Remember Cam and Kohb were with us. But Kohb was sick
afterwards when we got back to the TARDIS. He said it was the ‘grand
escargot’, but nobody else was ill at all. And he had Cam looking
after him all night, so it all worked out for the best.”
“Let’s not talk about anyone being ill while we’re about
to order food. Two dozen escargot baked in garlic and parsley butter to
start. Then I think we should have the chateaubriand - with peppercorn
sauce, new potatoes roasted with rosemary, buttered French beans and tomato
salad with olives.”
“Then I get to choose desert,” Julia said. “I think
the assiette de fraises sounds the very thing.”
Chrístõ summoned the waiter and ordered their food. Their
starters were brought presently and they ate, talking about other restaurants
in exotic places they had visited over the years. Julia remembered the
first birthday she had enjoyed in Chrístõ’s company.
They had eaten in Milan, in the 19th century. She was still getting over
the trauma of losing her family and being rescued from a dead ship and
it had seemed unreal. Chrístõ had seemed like a dream to
her. An angel who had plucked her from a nightmare.
He was still her angel. But now he was her boyfriend, too.
“The Professor was strange, wasn’t he,” she said as
they waited for their main course to be served. “I liked him, though.
Didn’t you?”
“Yes, I think I did,” he said. “I… I strongly
suspect he IS a Renegade. The same way Li Tuo was. He does have something
to hide. But I think…”
“You want to get to know him in the same way you knew Li, don’t
you?”
“Yes,” he admitted. “I… miss Li. Chronotis…
seems a lot like him. He’s very old, very wise. And I can’t
quite believe that he did anything terrible. Sometimes our laws are very
strict. I think sometimes a good man can act in a way that seems wrong.”
“Or he could be a criminal….”
“Yes, he could. But… I want to trust him. I want to believe
him. I want somebody I can turn to for advice the way I could with Li.
And I think he could be that somebody.”
“I hope so,” Julia said. “Because then we can come back
to Cambridge again. It’s nice being here, seeing places I know.
This restaurant is still there in the twenty-fourth century. It’s
still French. But I’ve never been in. I was too young.”
“Well, maybe we’ll come back just to come to this restaurant,”
he promised. “When you’re eighteen, we’ll come here
and you can have champagne.”
She smiled warmly and he almost wished they could skip dessert and go
somewhere quiet where he could kiss her. But it was her birthday and she
wanted the strawberry sorbet and the cheese platter that he ordered to
round it all off. And the café au lait that she drank slowly while
he had a strong filtered coffee with a dash of Armagnac in it.
Afterwards, as they stepped out of the restaurant into the warm evening,
he asked her if she wanted to do anything else. There were some discos
and late night music rooms where they could go, though not all of them
were suitable for her age.
“I would just like to go for a walk,” she said. “Let’s
go across the bridge and walk down past King’s College on the other
side of the river. It’s all uplit at night. It’ll be beautiful.”
“Why not,” he said. They walked past the TARDIS. It would
be perfectly all right where it was, disguised as a red phone box with
an out of order sign on it. They walked hand in hand over the bridge and
onto the public footpath.
“My birthday is in February, but we have a summer night to walk
in,” Julia said. “That’s the wonderful thing about being
with you.”
“I checked the weather for your 16th birthday,” he said. “Cambridge
was under two foot of snow with blizzards expected. Not so very nice at
all. We are much better here. As long as your shoes aren’t too much
trouble. They’re not really made for walking.”
“They feel all right for now. I’ve been practicing wearing
heels, so I could wear them with this dress. I wanted to be taller, so
I could kiss you.”
He laughed at the idea and put his arm around her waist. In a little while,
he intended to find a place where they could sit. Then it wouldn’t
matter how tall she was.
There was a bench with a fantastic view over the river to the iconic view
of King’s College. He sat down and pulled her gently onto his knee.
His arm slipped around her shoulders as she turned her face towards him.
His free hand touched her cheek as his lips pressed against hers. There
was a hint of strawberry on her breath still and Armagnac on his. It was
a pleasing combination as the kiss lengthened.
It wasn’t the first time they had kissed, of course. Not even the
first time they had kissed with any kind of passion. But the times before,
it had been because he was in some kind of desperate trouble or had to
go into some fearful danger. This time, he had all night, if he wanted,
to kiss her. And she wanted him to. Her lips parted slightly and he kissed
her joyfully, just because he could.
“Have you ever regretted it,” he asked her as he held her
in his arms, her head on his shoulder. “All the years you waited,
when your friends had boyfriends, did you ever feel… that maybe
you’d be better off with that ordinary life?”
“No,” she answered. “Never. You’re my prince.
You always have been. Do you remember… when Li Tuo read my timeline
and told me I would marry my prince charming. And I said I didn’t
want to marry any prince charming. I wanted to marry my Chrístõ.
And he laughed and said you were a prince of the universe. And I knew
then… I knew I wanted you forever.”
“I always worried… if somebody might take you from me.”
“I always worried about that, too. You meet so many interesting
people. Camilla… she was mad about you. She could have… and
so many others… beautiful women who could steal you from me.”
“Never,” he said and hugged her close to him again. He was
surprised as he did so to feel something in the pocket of her cloak.
“What’s that?” he asked.
“The Professor’s puzzle box. I don’t know why I put
it into my pocket. I just had this strange feeling I had to hang onto
it.”
“It’s all right,” he told her. “I don’t
mind. I was just surprised to find something so solid when I was looking
for a soft hug.”
She gave him the hug anyway. He kissed her again, relishing the feeling
of being in love and being loved in return. What more could anyone ask
for?
He was startled to note that it was midnight. He could identify at least
a half dozen different church and chapel bells sounding. He had actually
let nearly an hour go by without even noticing it passing. A rare thing
for a Time Lord. He really was enjoying himself! He smiled at the young
woman who had made him forget what was in the very essence of his being.
Then his smile faded. He cried out in pain and fear as he felt his body
being pulled away from her, not in space, but in time. He was being dragged
out of the temporal present into something… he wasn’t sure
what. He was in too much pain to take it in. All he knew was that he had
been taken away from Julia.
Julia screamed as she felt him disappear from her grasp. Then she felt
a hand on her shoulder. She turned to see Professor Chronotis standing
there.
“Oh! Professor. Please help me. Something happened. Chrístõ…
he’s been taken. Something… took him.”
“I know,” he said. “I’m sorry. So very sorry.
I am… ashamed of what I did. I deceived him. I deceived both of
you. I deceived HER, too. Because I know he will try to escape from her.
He’s strong. I’m not. But I am ashamed of it. And… you
have the box? The one I gave you?”
“Yes, it’s here,” Julia said. “But… what’s
that got to do with anything? What’s happening? What do you mean
about deceiving him? Where is Chrístõ? Do you know what
happened to him?” She stared at the old Time Lord as she slowly
put two and two together. “What have you done? It’s you…
you pretended to be his friend… talking about Gallifrey… and
then… you did something to him…”
She wasn’t usually violent, and her dress was not really designed
for it anyway, but she managed to kick the Professor hard in the shins
and she drew her arm back to punch him. He grabbed both arms and held
them. She struggled but found him much stronger than she expected an old
man to be.
“I’ll scream,” she said. “There are people around.
I’ll scream. The police will come. A man… grabbing a girl
in the park… they’ll lock you up.”
“Then I won’t be able to complete my plan and bring your young
man back. He’ll be HER servant forever.”
“Her… who?”
“Time.”
“What?”
“He is the servant of Time. That was the bargain.”
“Well… what does that mean? He’s a Time Lord. Time is
HIS servant. He says that all the time. It always sounds a bit conceited,
but it’s true, all the same.”
“Nevertheless, Time needs companionship. Come… quickly.”
He grabbed her hand and pulled her towards a door that had appeared across
the footpath, just standing upright in an impossible way. He fumbled for
a key and opened it. She tried to resist. She knew it was his TARDIS and
she would be a prisoner in it. But he was stronger than she was and he
pulled her towards the threshold.
“If you want him back, then don’t struggle any more. Just
do as I say,” Chronotis said. “There is very little time.”
He laughed at a pun only he thought funny. “There is all the time
in Creation, and yet none at all. Come along.” He pulled her into
the TARDIS and slammed the door shut. She noticed that it actually looked
like a TARDIS now, though one with old fashioned wood-panelled walls and
a library in the corner. It still felt a bit like his study while being
very distinctly a TARDIS. She watched as Chronotis set it moving very
briefly.
She recognised the new location straight away. It was the King Edward
Gate at Trinity college, known as the Clock Tower, because there was a
clock that chimed the hour. She looked at it. It said it was midnight.
But it couldn’t be. It must have been at least fifteen minutes since
she and Chrístõ were on the river bank, kissing, with all
the clocks striking. Fifteen minutes since he was snatched from her.
“Time is standing still,” Chronotis told her. “Look…”
He pointed to something on the lawn. It was a peacock. The poor creature
was frozen in place, with its tail feathers half opened. She looked further.
There was a man who looked like a university security guard. He was frozen
in mid-step, halfway up the path between the pristine lawns. Beyond him
was the fountain, the water unmoving as if it was a photograph.
“A time freeze. Well, Chrístõ can do that. I’ve
seen it before. This isn’t clever.”
“I didn’t do it. SHE did. Time has other things on her mind.
It’s our respite. We have a short time – half an hour at most
– to do what we have to do and get your Chrístõ back
into this plane of reality. It doesn’t affect us, of course. I’m
a Time Lord. You are protected by that box. It has some other properties,
too. You might get to find some of them out in time to come. But for now,
hold onto it. It’s the key to bringing your boy back.
He looked at the door just inside the archway of the Clock Tower Gate
and then took from his pocket what Julia guessed was a kind of sonic screwdriver,
though it was a different style to the one Chrístõ used.
He unlocked the door and told her to climb up the stairs inside. She did
as he said, even though her shoes were starting to hurt a little now and
clambering up dusty stairs in a chiffon dress and high heels was not easy.
She obeyed because she had no choice. He seemed to know how to get Chrístõ
back and she had to go along with it for now.
“I thought you were a nice man,” she said as she climbed.
“This afternoon, when we had tea, you seemed nice. Chrístõ
trusted you.”
“I know,” he answered. “Deceiving him… was the
hardest thing I have ever had to do. I am sorry. More sorry than you can
ever know. But please keep going, all the way to the top.”
At the top was a small, glass panelled, octagonal room, the bell tower.
“Why are we here?” she asked.
“We’re here, because this is a place associated with time.
It’s full of temporal energy. It’s like a magnet for HER.
We can bring Chrístõ back to this world here.”
“You really do mean that time…” Julia shook her head.
“Look… I know there are mythological personifications of things
like the wind, the sun, Earth, but… Time is a man for one thing.
Old Father Time… and it’s not real.”
“She’s a woman. A beautiful, entrancing woman who yearns to
have her long, endless days warmed by a lover… a husband.”
“You said servant.”
“Same thing. He would be bound to her… for ever at her bidding,
husband, servant, slave, for eternity.”
“And she took Chrístõ because…”
“Because I wouldn’t let her take me. She wanted… but
I was afraid.”
“Of dying?”
“No. Of living… of never dying. I’ve lived nearly eight
thousand years already. I’m ready to die naturally. I look forward
to the peace of it. But if I became her lover… Time’s Consort…
I would live forever. I would never die. Eight thousand years is a long
time… but eternity… from the beginning of time to the end
of it… I couldn’t bear it. So I told her I would find another…
one of my own kind who has an affinity with Time. I knew sooner or later
one would come. I expected somebody would come trying to take me back
to Gallifrey. But instead he came… young, full of life, full of
love. She was attracted to him, of course. And I couldn’t refuse
her. But I knew that she could be defeated. If I let her take me, I would
not be able to escape. I don’t have the strength to break free.
But he can.”
“Get him back,” Julia said. “Get him back, now.”
“It’s up to you,” Chronotis said. “How much do
you want him back? How much do you love him? Show me the box.”
“What does that have to do with anything?” she asked as she
reached into her pocket and took out the puzzle box.
“Hold it in both hands. Hold it up. And tell me how much you love
that boy of yours.”
“He’s not a boy,” Julia protested. “He’s
a brave, wonderful man. And I love him with all my heart. Since the day
we first met… when he saved my life, gave me a life to live, a future,
a reason to live. I’ve loved him every moment since then. I have
never even thought of any other man. I have always known Chrístõ
was mine. I’ve never loved anyone but him. And nobody, nobody can
love him more than me, not even some mythological woman who can live forever.
She can’t love him more than me even if she has him to the end of
time. And he can’t… he won’t love her. Because he loves
me.”
She gasped as something clicked at the top of the puzzle box. A piece
of it snapped up. Then another piece came out of the side. The whole thing
began to open up and a light came out of it that was almost too bright
to bear.
“What is it?” she asked.
“It’s time running free again,” Chronotis answered.
“SHE stopped it so she could take him out of it. But you’ve
restarted it.”
In proof of that, the bells struck the last note of the midnight hour
with their high and low notes described by Wordsworth as a male and female
voice. Julia’s scream was a pitch higher than the female note as
she saw Chrístõ lying face down on the floor. He seemed,
for a few moments, to be bathed in the bright light before it slowly faded.
He was unconscious. Julia turned him over onto his back and felt for a
pulse under his clavicle. It was very faint. His hearts were hardly beating.
She began to massage them in the way she had learned in First Aid class,
except that she had to use both hands on his two hearts at the same time.
“That won’t work,” Chronotis said. “His lifeforce
is drained. Let me…”
Julia was reluctant to let him touch Chrístõ. This was all
his fault, after all. But if he knew how to help him, then what else could
she do? She moved away as Chronotis knelt by his side and put his hands
over Chrístõ’s hearts. Both of them began to glow
and it seemed to Julia as if an energy of some kind was being passed from
Chronotis to Chrístõ.
She watched hopefully until she saw Chrístõ shudder and
give out a shocked gasp.
“Julia?” he called out. She ran to him. “Oh,, my Julia.
I thought I’d never see you again. I’m back…”
“Forgive me,” said Chronotis. “Please forgive me. While
there’s time. Forgive me for my deceit, for the ordeal you went
through, for betraying you and our blessed world.”
“I… forgive you,” Chrístõ answered.
“Thank you,” Chronotis said and then collapsed. Chrístõ
pulled himself upright and reached to help him. But it was too late.
“He’s dead.”
“How?” Julia asked. “What killed him?”
“He killed himself. He gave me the last of his lifeforce. He saved
my life at cost of his own.”
Chrístõ lifted the old man’s body into his arms and
carried it down the stairs. Julia followed. He kept on going until they
were outside, under the archway of the clock tower. He looked around.
Time was running normally, now. He waited in the shadows until the security
guard had passed by, then he ran to Chronotis’s TARDIS, disguised
as a small security post. Julia found the key in the old man’s pocket
and opened the door, but Chrístõ told her to go back to
the archway and stay out of sight. He took Chronotis’s body inside.
A few minutes later he came back outside and ran to her. They watched
as the TARDIS dematerialised, disturbing the peacock and bringing the
security guard running. But by the time he got to the archway they had
gone.
Chrístõ took Julia back to their own TARDIS. He looked at
the clock on the console and then brought them forward a few hours. He
re-materialised the TARDIS on the river bank where they had sat last night.
Only now it was dawn. The new sun glanced off King’s College Chapel
as they sat together on the same seat.
“I was sucked into another dimension,” he said. “Another
reality, where Time was personified by a very beautiful woman. I’m
not sure how she managed to exert her influence on this reality. But she
had sought a mate… somebody to share Eternity with. Chronotis resisted
her. I don’t know why.”
“He didn’t want to live for eternity,” Julia answered
him, and explained what the old man had said to her.
“I see.” Chrístõ nodded. He grasped Julia’s
hand tightly. “It’s hard to explain. In one way I was gone
no more than a few seconds…. My body clock registers no more than
that. I didn’t age at all. But in another… I was there for
eternity, from the beginning of time to the end. And if I concentrate,
I can feel it, the billions upon billions of years… I lived them
all as her consort, her lover. And to make her smile, make her less lonely,
it was almost worth it.”
Julia looked disturbed by that.
“When I say lover… I don’t mean in the way we understand
it. I’m… I can still marry you with a clear conscience. But
she needed my lifeforce. That’s what I gave to her. That’s
why I was weak when I returned. I had given her so much - in an eternity
of service to her or one incredibly powerful moment – either way,
coming back from it would have killed me if he hadn’t been prepared
to give himself.”
“He didn’t want to live for eternity. He wanted to die in
the ordinary way.”
“Yes.”
“He knew… when he got you back he would have to die to save
you,”
“He knew before he began. He did it, knowing he would die. That’s…
courage of a kind.”
“So he wasn’t evil. He did something very wrong. But…
for good reasons.”
“So did she. Time. She was lonely. It made her do a desperate thing.
I can still remember how she felt. She was happy when I was with her.”
“So is she lonely again now? Will she try to take another lover?”
“No,” Chrístõ said. “Because… in
a way… I’m still there. Like I said… it lasted only
seconds… or for all time. For me… seconds… and then
I was back with you. For her… she has me for ever. Do you understand?”
“Sort of. It doesn’t matter. You’re here with me.”
She hugged him tightly in proof of that, glad to feel his hearts beating
as she pressed against him. “What about Chronotis? Where did you
send his body?”
“Home. To Gallifrey. I sent him to The Tower, to Hext. I put a note
into the databank to explain what happened. He’ll arrange for a
proper Gallifreyan funeral. He can also download the TARDIS databanks.
He’ll know who Chronotis really was. There’s probably a Celestial
Intervention Agency file he can close with the information. Maybe…
when I see him again… he might tell me the secret. Or… maybe
I won’t ask. Maybe it’s best that way.”
“You wanted him as your mentor.”
“Yes. But… that’s a selfish regret. Besides… I
will see him again.”
“In your future… and his past.”
“Maybe I’ll find out the truth about him, then. It can wait.
Meanwhile…” He looked at Julia and noticed that she was holding
the puzzle box. “Are you going to keep that?”
“Yes. He said it had other secrets. He said I’d understand
them in time. Could be exciting.”
“Could be dangerous. Chronotis seemed the sort who didn’t
know the difference.”
“Bit like you, then?”
“I know the difference,” Chrístõ answered her.
“Put it away. I don’t need any other excitement right now
than… than finding out just how kiss-proof twenty-fourth century
lipstick really is.”
Julia laughed as he enfolded her in his arms. She surrendered to his kisses
as the sun came up on the morning after her birthday.