“I’m freezing,”
Jack said through chattering teeth. “I can’t seem to get
warm at all.”
“Hang on.” Jack heard movement in the tent. And then to
his surprise he felt The Doctor sliding into the sleeping bag with
him. He was wearing his jeans still but he had taken off his jumper.
“Shared body heat,”
The Doctor said. “Oldest trick in the book. Just have to raise
my own temperature. My natural body heat is nearly 30 degrees less
than Human. But I can adjust it at will.”
And he did. Jack gasped with
surprise as he felt The Doctor’s body become warm to the touch.
The Doctor put his arms around his shoulders and snuggled close to
him.
“My wildest dream,”
Jack laughed ironically. “You in bed with me.”
“Not EXACTLY as you
imagined it, I think,” The Doctor answered. “I’m
still a one-woman-man. I just don’t want my best friend freezing
to death.”
“Best friend.”
Jack smiled. “That’s a nice thing to be. Never really
been anyone’s best friend before. Never known anyone like you
before.”
“Now you’re getting
soppy,” The Doctor warned him. “You’re meant to
be a tough guy.”
“Must be the thin air
on this planet,” he replied. “Makes me daft.” He
was silent for a while, then he spoke again. “Doctor…
if I tell you something… you won’t laugh.”
“I’ll try not
to,” he promised.
“I DO have a fantasy
about you,” Jack said. “But it's not about being in bed.
It’s… it’s that you turn out to be my father.”
The Doctor didn’t laugh.
“You don’t KNOW
who your father is?”
“No. I broke into the
records at the orphanage once. Found my birth certificate. But the
father’s name is blank. I’m a genuine, bone-fide bastard,
apparently.”
“Ah.” The Doctor
said. “Always thought that phrase ought to apply to the fathers
in those instances not the child. But why did you think I might be
the blank.”
“Didn’t. Just
sort of hoped. Always hoped my biological father might be somebody
special. And you’re the most special person I ever met. And…”
“That’s a sweet
idea,” The Doctor said. “But I’ve never even KISSED
a woman in the 51st century. Let alone… Julia was the first
woman I ever made love to and Rose was the second.”
“And you told me that
Time Lords aren’t frigid.”
“We’re not. I’m
just particular. But never mind me. I never knew… I knew you
were an orphan, but I didn’t know you knew so little about yourself.”
“I know my mother’s
name was Josephine Harkness. She came from Scotland but I was born
on the hospital ship SS Grace Holloway in space.”
“Ah.” The Doctor
gave a little chuckle. “I know I’ve got no room to talk
here,” he said. “But how come you have an American accent
then?”
“The orphanage was
run by American nuns,” he replied. “On Jupiter. That’s
the only home I remember. But the orphanage records say I was six
months old when I arrived there. I don’t know why she left me
there. I used to think about it when I was a kid. Maybe she loved
me but it was just too hard for her. Maybe she was forced to give
me up. Or maybe she was fed up of having a kid in tow and dumped me
or…”
“You wanted to know
if there was love there or not?” The Doctor said. “I can
understand that. I don’t remember much of my mother, but I know
she loved me.”
“I wish I could…
I don’t even know what she looked like.”
The Doctor reached out in
the dark and touched Jack’s face, brushing away the tears he
had failed to hold back. Then he held his head gently in his hands
and concentrated hard. He saw Jack’s DNA. Definitely Human.
He almost felt a little disappointed. The idea that Jack might be
his own blood was tempting. Jack was a fine man and he would be proud
to be his father.
He focussed then on Jack’s
deepest memories. The ones he, himself, didn’t even know he
had. He saw a young woman with tired but happy eyes, holding her newborn
baby in her arms. He saw a woman who loved and cared for her child.
Who picked him up and cuddled him every opportunity she got, who kissed
his baby cheeks and nourished him from her own body.
He saw the baby gently lifted
by a paramedic from a wrecked automobile as the body of a woman was
cut from it.
“She died?” Jack’s
tears fell unchecked. “That’s why I went to the orphanage.
My mother died?”
“Yes, I’m sorry.
And I’m sorry I couldn’t see who your father was. I could
only reach into your own nascent memories. And there seems no sign
of him being with your mother.”
“That’s pretty
damn good, anyway,” Jack said as he dried his tears. “Thank
you. At least I know now that it wasn’t her fault. And…
I know what she looked like. She was beautiful.”
“She was, indeed,”
The Doctor said with a soft laugh. “And, sorry to say, that
confirms it. I can’t possibly be your father. I know I would
remember her face.”